KEEP HOLDING ON

Okay, so it's been awhile again. Though I do not think it's been quite as long as last time. But I guess it's high time I updated. So, I've been doing pretty damn amazing lately, even with a breakup. I turned 22 two weeks ago. I feel rather old because of it, though I know I'm not by any means old. It's just that there's all this hype leading up to your 21st birthday...and then birthdays after that just seem rather dull and drab. The next big birthday is 30 and most people fear it. For me, it is what it is. I had a fun birthday and that's what matters. Though, my birthday in NY turned into my birthday in Smithville and Atlantic City. Why? Trains were suspended from Delware, north. So we ended up going to Smithville and Atlantic City instead. It was still amazing and I still enjoyed the day.

Now, I broke up with my girlfriend, now ex-girlfriend...but that hasn't sent me into a downward spiral. Actually, I feel kind of relieved. However, it isn't my place to spill what happened here for the world to see. Plus, it's rather personal and we're trying to be friends. So, that is all I will say on that matter.

Jessi and I made up. She sent me texts the weekend after my birthday apologizing for everything. She missed me and didn't like how things happened. She couldn't stand not having me in her life, and she made amends for everything that happened between us. I'm glad. I missed her. I hate when friendships end and there's loose ends to be tied up. She tied them up by making amends and I'm glad. I missed her, but I had made my moves to fix it and while it took her two months to respond, she did. So, I'm glad.

Camp Sunshine is coming again! The weeks have been announced and I am so incredibly excited to reapply and to be a counselor again. I just hope to see some of the same counselors I worked with last year and also some of the amazing kids, though I hope to see them in good health. However, I'm doing an oncology session this time, not an off treatment oncology session. This session will probably be much more pressing because some of the kids WILL be sick. However, I know it will be just as rewarding and I love the kids I met last time and no doubt I will love those I meet this time. I'm actually trying to do 2 weeks this summer.

Then there's an update on my cousin. Tara is doing alright, they put her on new medicine which is supposed to help the swelling in her brain and prevent her vision from getting worse. The down side is it seems they may not be able to correct the vision loss she has already had. She slips from 20/40 to being legally blind at 20/180. She probably won't be able to drive when she's older if this can't be corrected and she'll also likely need help in school for most of her school life. It's sad how much we take for granted, but she's a tough 11 year old and she'll get through, plus my family is supportive and we will always support her and love her.

I think that's about it for now. I just felt an update was in order.